Difficult Paranoia Episodes (24/4/24)

Today/during attempted sleep period, I had two episodes of paranoia thinking I had people breaking into my flat. Both times I was laying on my bed. The first episode, I could feel my body going into panic mode. I could hear people at the door and windows, trying to find a way in. There were

1 Year Support with Autism Herts

I wanted to make a post to express my appreciation for the autism charity that has been almost my sole lifeline for the past year. When I moved back to my hometown in September 2022, I had little to no support from mental health services, despite multiple diagnoses, and struggling to even look after myself

A Bit Ranty, Not Doing So Well

I am really struggling at the moment. There are a lot of things that I am simply unable to manage on my own without prompting, and I have been like it my whole life. I have tried the Complex Needs Team, they say go to the Community Mental Health Team. I try the CMHT they

Overview of the Past Year (2023)

Well, 2023 was an eventful year all in all, with ups and downs. First and most importantly is the fact that I got a cat as a companion animal. She is now six months old and was spayed two days ago, and so she is currently recovering from that. She is very affectionate and really

A Difficult Year, But Looking Forward

Well, 2023 was… utterly crap. For the most part. There were ups and downs throughout the year, and I’d say that towards the end of the year there were definite improvements in some areas, but over all not a year I would like to redo. I am still having extensive difficulty trying to get any

Accessing Autism Support (Finally)

As regular readers will be aware, I have struggled significantly with getting support for the last few years, being bounced from one organisation to another, either because I am “too complex” or because I “do not meet the requirements”. They never explain what they mean by that, they just pass the buck to someone else,

Summer Approaching, Trapped Indoors From Fear

It is drawing nearer and nearer to summer, and this is causing me considerably increased anxiety. As I have mentioned previously, I am limited to the times that I can leave my flat to school hours when most youths will be in school or college, and therefore it is safe. I do not generally go

Living with Schizophrenia and Autism

I thought that I would discuss a little bit about what it is like to live with schizophrenia and autism, for me personally. Every since I was a child I have struggled with socialising, and would spend most of my time alone. I was generally quiet and subdued, but easily upset. Despite having noticeable problems

Current State (Mental Health)

This was something I Tweeted, and thought I would share here, because it is important After a [expletive] year living here, I am still getting no support from mental health services. I have paranoid schizophrenia and am autistic, I struggle with social phobia and social anxiety, and am too scared to leave the flat 90%

Growing Fears, Limits to Daily Life

So, as I mentioned previously I went away for the weekend to Exeter with my best friend. However, on the return journey, the first train was delayed for 18 minutes, then I had to switch to a bus which was delayed for a further 15 minutes, and then whilst waiting for the bus I checked